(Minghui.org) At the time of my grandson’s birth in 2014, my father-in-law was confined to his bed, my son had back and leg pain and was unable to work, my husband was laid off, and my daughter-in-law was on maternity leave.
My husband was concerned about our family. I tried to reassure him, “Don’t worry! Worrying is useless. At least we have enough wheat, and a jar of pickles to eat.” I just thought that this was all a test and remembered what Master Li Hongzhi (Dafa’s founder) said,
“When it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.” (Lecture Nine in Zhuan Falun)
I told my family, “Heaven never seals off all the exits; this is only temporary.”
Six or seven officers came to harass my family and wanted to arrest me. My husband tried to reason with them and asked why they wanted to take me. He told them that I treated my in-laws and children well, and I couldn’t do it without practicing Dafa. They then asked him if he also practiced Falun Dafa. My husband said that the whole family did. The officers grabbed him and tried to take him to the police car, but they were unsuccessful. At that time, I shouted out: “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good! Gangsters are in my house!”
Five officers tried to drag me out, but couldn’t. They made a phone call, and three more officers came. So eight of them dragged me to the police car and took me to the detention center. In the police car, I let go of all thoughts in my mind, including those of my family’s troubles. I also let go of all sentimentality and worries.
In the detention center, I did the exercises every day. The guards initially didn’t allow me to do them, so I said: “I’m a practitioner, and practitioners practice wherever they go.”
They threatened me, “Do you know where the surveillance cameras are connected to? To Jinan City,” implying I would be in serious trouble as those in the provincial capital would know I practiced Falun Dafa.
I responded: “That connection is very short. My Master spreads Dafa all over the world!”
A guard threatened me, saying that if I spoke about Falun Dafa to the inmates, they wouldn’t allow me to eat. The next day, I stopped eating. They didn’t know what to do and never threatened me again.
I thought: What I did was not in accordance with the Fa. Why was I arrested to suffer such persecution? I found many attachments, such as being busy with household chores, not keeping up with Fa study and doing the exercises, being unable to maintain my xinxing, holding resentment toward my husband, and not behaving like a traditional woman. Sentimentality was the rope that bound me. What did I want it for? I thought of Master’s Fa and was filled with positive energy.
After returning home from the detention center, my husband was unhappy, my daughter-in-law had sores all over her mouth, and my son didn’t want our house to be used for group Fa study. He told me not to let other practitioners come anymore. My husband also scolded me, saying that I would not let them live in peace. I said to him, “You know the situation with Dafa. I want to have a good life, but without Dafa, how could I have such good health?”
I told them not to worry about anything, as our hardships were only temporary. Just by reciting “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,” we can overcome any tribulation.
I asked my son: “Nothing happens without a reason, you should also check yourself. Did you take things you were not supposed to have, or receive gifts from others at work? Although you are not a cultivator, the principle of ‘good is rewarded and bad deeds will receive retribution’ applies to everyone.”
He replied: “These past few years, I had the attachment of personal interest. The medical insurance company reimbursed me more than 10,000 yuan for my wife’s delivery of our child. This benefit was supposed to be only 6,000 yuan.”
“See how much you have suffered for taking the extra 4,000 yuan,” I said. At this point, I thought I should allow everything to take the course of nature. Master has the final say, and I must maintain my xinxing. My husband was so worried that he kept shedding tears, but I kept calm. I said to Master in my heart: I must pass this test well. My son’s back eventually recovered, and a neighbor offered my husband a job.
In the blink of an eye, my husband passed away three years ago, and my grandson (the second grandchild) had reached school age. When he first started school, I felt lost and lonely. I said to my son: “Both of your children attend school, and the burden is not light, you won’t have to give me money in the future.” Although I said that, when he actually gave me less money, I felt a little hurt. I thought about how much I had paid for the family in my life.
My daughter-in-law asked me to live with them so I could save some money, but my home was the site for group Fa study. If I lived with them, other practitioners would have no place to meet, they wouldn’t get the weekly journals, and I would also lose my Fa-study environment. I wanted to find a job even though I was nearly 70 years old.
I offered incense to Master and said: “Master, I know that going to work will delay saving people, but I have to have a job.” I then had three job offers. I figured, if the job was too far away, it would delay my sending forth righteous thoughts and doing the exercises. So I decided to choose a cooking job in my village.
On the first day of work, I found the workplace was really a place to cultivate my xinxing. Sure enough, xinxing tests soon followed.
I used to get along well with the boss and his wife as we lived in the same village. The boss’ son said the buns I made were delicious. However, the boss’s wife seemed unhappy when she heard this and told me to prepare the food her way. When they ran out of gas, I asked the boss’s wife to find someone to change the gas canister, but she told me to do it myself.
She bought pig intestines and asked me to clean them. I said I was busy and asked her to help, but she said she had no time even though she was playing on her phone. I then asked the gatekeeper to help, and after finishing the work, I invited him for tea. The next day, the teapot and teacup had disappeared.
The boss told me not to add onions, ginger, and meat to the dishes in the future. But I happened to be cooking fish that day and wanted to know if I should add onions or meat. He looked at his wife and said, “It’s not good to cook fish without meat.” His wife’s facial expression made me feel really uncomfortable.
During that time, I kept reminding myself that I’m a cultivator, and I should be patient and cultivate my heart. The things that cultivators encounter are not accidental. I looked inward and found attachments of jealousy, showing off, and competitiveness. Once I found an attachment, I would eliminate it.
I want to let go of my attachment to self, get rid of selfish thoughts, and assimilate to Dafa. With Master and Dafa, I can overcome all obstacles!