(Minghui.com) I was persecuted, and my husband lost money in a business he ran at home, leaving our family in financial difficulty. Because I did not keep up with my Fa study, I couldn’t calm down and let go of the situation. I felt tremendous pressure. I resented my husband for owing a large amount of money, for not working hard, and for not looking for work. Instead he played mahjong, ignored his family and did not fulfill his responsibilities. Whenever I looked at him I was angry. I felt miserable.
I was cooking one evening when he came home. As soon as I saw him, I said irritably, “Come get your noodles.” Seeing my stern expression, he said, “Can you speak nicely for once?” Angrily, I replied, “This is just how I talk.” He said, “Fine, I won’t eat.” He angrily walked out.
After he left, I was stunned. What was I doing? Am I a cultivator? How could I keep making things difficult for him like this? So what if he lost money? Master teaches us to be good people and to treat everyone well. Yes, he did lose money, but was I being a good person by treating him this way? Wasn’t having a difficult life simply an opportunity to endure hardship? Wasn’t this exactly a good opportunity to let go of fame, gain, and sentiment?
When I compared myself with the Fa, I realized I was wrong. I needed to use the Fa to correct myself, listen to Master, treat everyone well, and consider others in everything I did. Master’s teachings untied the knot in my heart and I calmed down.
After adjusting my mindset, I went to look for my husband. As soon as I entered our neighbor’s home, I saw him sitting there. Smiling, I said, “The food is ready. Come home and eat.” Our neighbor said, “I thought you two already had your dinner.” I said, “I ate the leftover noodles just now. I cooked a fresh batch for him.” Several neighbors in the room were chatting and laughing. Seeing me smiling and inviting him to eat, my husband happily said, “Let’s go home and eat.”
We talked and laughed as we walked home—as if nothing happened. The conflict that seemed ready to erupt was peacefully resolved simply because I looked within. Looking within really works.
My husband is very chauvinistic. He does not have a regular job and likes to spend his time playing mahjong, so I take care of almost all the housework. When I study the Fa well, my state is good, and I can use Master’s teachings to guide my actions. I don’t argue with him and I’m able to endure his behavior. When my state isn’t good, however, I can’t hold myself to a high standard. I become unbalanced inside and resent him. This resentment keeps resurfacing, and I’ve never been able to completely eliminate it.
One time my resentment toward him caused my leg to hurt so much that I limped when I walked. When my cousin saw me she urged me to go to the hospital for a checkup. I said, “It’s nothing. My husband doesn’t work and only plays mahjong. I felt it was unfair and I resented him, so my leg pain hurt. I need to study the Fa well, adjust myself, and let go of my resentment toward him, and then I’ll be fine.” I repeatedly worked on eliminating my resentment toward him, and my leg stopped hurting.
Another experience left the deepest impression on me. It was in the autumn of 2021. We already had a lot of rain, and it continued to rain. Several places on our roof leaked, causing plaster and dust to fall from the walls. The floor, tables, and beds were covered with debris, which was annoying.
After the rain stopped, I spent an entire day thoroughly cleaning two rooms. My husband saw me cleaning but he did not ask about it and he did not help me. He continued playing mahjong as usual and only came home when it was time to eat.
I had to move things, sweep, and wipe everything down. I was exhausted. Since he neither helped nor showed any concern, I felt extremely wronged and became resentful. I kept working until almost midnight. I stopped to send righteous thoughts, and then I went to bed.
My left leg cramped as soon as I got into bed. The pain was so severe that I immediately sat up. I squeezed, rubbed, and patted my leg, but nothing helped. I quickly got out of bed and tried stomping my foot, stretching my leg, and patting it, nothing helped. The pain was unbearable but I didn’t know what to do. I suddenly became dizzy and nauseous and felt like vomiting. I dry-heaved several times but could not vomit. My stomach also began to feel extremely uncomfortable, and I felt that I was going to have diarrhea. I hurried to the bathroom and sat on the toilet as wave after wave of discomfort came over me.
This situation alerted me: I am a cultivator! I quickly looked within. I usually did not feel tired after doing housework, but that day I was exhausted, and I was in a bad mood. What was wrong with me?
I suddenly understood: I had resentment so I felt unbalanced. I resented my husband for not helping me and I’d been complaining constantly. It was my attachment of resentment that was causing all this. I quickly admitted my mistake to Master in my heart: “Master, I was wrong. It was my resentment toward my husband that brought about this ordeal. I don’t want this resentment. It’s not the real me. I will learn from this experience, and I will definitely improve.”
After about fifteen minutes my body returned to normal. I kept thanking Master in my heart and felt deeply grateful for his saving grace.
Cultivation is truly miraculous, and looking within is the solution to problems. This is the power of Dafa and Master’s mighty virtue. Cultivation is wonderful, and having Master is truly wonderful.
I realized that Master is watching over us every moment. Seeing that I repeatedly failed to enlighten, Master carefully arranged tribulations and gave me hints so that I could eliminate my resentment toward my husband and improve myself. As I thought of this, tears of gratitude welled up in my eyes. I thanked Master for his painstaking arrangements and for always protecting me.
Last spring, I went to the market to buy rice. I asked the vendor the price, and decided to buy 100 yuan worth. The vendor was very happy and handed me a bag. As he poured the rice into the bag, he accidentally spilled some on the ground. When the vendor saw what happened, he panicked, and he muttered, “I’ve lost money. I’ve lost money.” I quickly said, “I’ll take the rice that fell on the ground. It’s not easy for you to run a small business. Put the clean rice into the rice bag, put the rice that touched the ground into a small plastic bag separately. Don’t mix them together. When I eat it, I will rinse the rice with water. It won’t be a problem. You won’t lose any money.” He immediately replied, “Thank you!
I told him, “I practice Falun Dafa. Master teaches us to be good people and to consider others in everything we do. If it had been someone else, they might not have wanted the rice.” The vendor said, “Yes, yes. Falun Dafa is good! Falun Dafa is good!” He repeated it twice. I asked, “Do you know about Falun Dafa?”
He said, “There are people in my village who practice. They are all very good.” I asked if he joined any of the Chinese Communist Party’s organizations. He said that he had never joined any of them. I then told him some basic facts about Dafa and encouraged him to say, “Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” I told him that many people have been blessed after saying these words. He happily agreed.
A small act of kindness allowed one life to see the beauty of Dafa and have a bright future. This brought me great comfort.
The Fa rectifying the human world is imminent. Master has been waiting for us to mature in our cultivation. Master has made tremendous sacrifices for us each and every day. We must cherish this once-in-eternity opportunity and sacred predestined relationship even more. I will cherish every day, genuinely look within, and cultivate myself. I will cultivate myself well, do the three things well, and return home with Master.