Master’s Teachings Shook My Soul and Shattered My Resentment

(Minghui.org) When I recently helped edit another practitioner’s article, which was to be submitted for World Falun Dafa Day, I read something that Master said,

“Remember my words: Regardless of whether the problem is your fault or not, you should look inside yourself, and you will find a problem. If the matter has absolutely nothing to do with you or doesn’t involve any of the attachments you should break, then that thing would rarely happen to you. If you didn’t have an attachment the problem wouldn’t have come about. I have to be responsible for your cultivation. Any problem that happens to you, around you, or among you is most likely related to you, and there is something for you to get rid of. No matter whether it’s your fault or not, when my Law Bodies are having you remove your attachment, they don’t care whether it’s your fault or another person’s. As long as you have an attachment, they will try everything to have you run into problems and have you recognize the attachment that makes you fall short. Yet you’re still looking around, “This isn’t my fault,” ...” (Teachings at the Conference in Europe)

I was stunned. Master’s words were like a heavy hammer hitting the depths of my soul, shattering the resentment that I had harbored for years. My heart suddenly opened up, and my feelings of regret and depression disappeared.

Master has always compassionately looked after me. Every sentence of his teachings points directly at my heart. Master brought me back from the edge of danger. My eyes were filled with tears of gratitude and joy.

My husband and I have been married for more than 40 years. My husband is a perfectionist. No one could satisfy him, including his wife and children. When he was young, in order to do well on a test, he memorized the entire textbook from beginning to end.

My husband suffers from bone and joint disease. I have to do all the housework, including all the laundry, the cooking, gardening, and shopping. I did not complain because I am a cultivator, and I tried my best to take care of him. 

However, in his pursuit of perfection, he could not see the strengths of others but only their shortcomings. He always found fault with whatever I did. I felt unbalanced: I did so much, but instead of thanking me, he criticized me! At work, the leaders always praised me. How come I could not do anything right in my husband’s eyes?

I forgot I was a Falun Dafa practitioner, and I did not suppress this unbalanced feeling. Instead, I allowed it to grow.

In fact, my husband was pushing me to improve my character. He even said, “I’m making you more perfect.” But, my human self thought he was ungrateful and lacked a conscience. I served him every day but he repaid my kindness with complaints! I argued with him. Over time, my resentment and fighting mentality became quite serious. He began to attack me over small things. I became increasingly angry and resentful.

One day, in front of two fellow practitioners, he criticized me and listed seven major mistakes I had made. I was embarrassed and my heart pounded. That night, he asked me to wash his towel, and I did. I asked him, “Am I good to you?” He said yes. “Then why do you belittle me?” He was a little embarrassed. I harbored more resentment in my heart.

I didn’t follow Dafa’s requirements. With such a strong sense of resentment, how could my family environment be good? The thoughts I sent out were all mixed with resentment. Of course my husband felt it. Wasn’t he also angry when he verbally abused me? This was also creating karma.

Now I understand that my husband is here to help me cultivate. Under Dafa’s guidance, my attitude towards my husband changed from resentment to guilt, and then to gratitude.

Master mercifully lifted me to a higher level. Master has done so much for us practitioners, and has given us all the best! I am so lucky to be a Falun Dafa practitioner! I must cultivate well and follow Master to return my true home.

Thank you, Master!