(Clearwisdom.net) I am a housewife and I started to practice cultivation in 1998. Here I would like to summarize some of my cultivation experiences over the past 10 years. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.
I used to have poor health. Sometimes my condition was very severe and I was not able to work. Since I started cultivation, all my illnesses have disappeared. Prior to July 20, 1999, my entire family practiced cultivation and we all lived happily. On July 20, 1999, Jiang's regime started to rampantly persecute Falun Gong.
In the beginning, we did not know the true meaning of validating the Fa. Upon arriving in Beijing, the police took me to the Local Government's Liaison Office. They asked me why I was in Beijing and I told them I was there to validate the Fa. Immediately, I felt a sudden change in my body; I felt myself elevating and my feet almost left the floor. My immediate thought was: "Isn't Teacher always by our side?" In fact, we encounter different situations just to see how we will react in the midst of a test. It is to see whether we have successfully achieved the effect of validating the Fa and to see if we have faith in Teacher. They interrogated me several times to see whether I would continue to practice. I replied, "Yes, I will continue to practice until the end." After several days of fruitless interrogation, they allowed me to return home. In the past several years, I have taken detours and endured many tribulations. If only we could see how much Teacher has sacrificed and endured for us.
In my truth-clarification to save sentient beings, I have done poorly and harbored the attachment of fear. I do not like to walk in the mountains and would rather take a detour to avoid it. There was an incident that was arranged to help me let go of that attachment. A fellow practitioner and I went out to distribute informational materials. At first everything went smoothly, but towards the end, a dog kept barking and its owner came outside, so we hurried back the way we came. Several people started to come outside. They started shouting and saying something we did not understand. The other practitioner and I hid in the cornfield to send forth righteous thoughts. The situation did not improve. I became nervous, wondering, "How can we go back with these people blocking our path?" There was only one road going back unless we chose to take a mountain trail. The other practitioner suggested the mountain trail. It was all right in the beginning, but as we continued we encountered two big tombs. Then a big bird suddenly came out of nowhere, flying around over our heads, and it scared me. We did not know how long it took us to navigate those two long mountain trails. After that we had to walk through the woods. There were many trees with branches the height of a person, and walking through them was difficult. Fortunately, moonlight guided us. From time to time, spider webs covered our faces as we continued walking. It took us more than two hours to return home. The next day, a family member of the practitioner who was with me remarked, "You were very brave. There are wolves in those mountains, and I would not do it even if someone paid me lots of money. You practitioners are great."
At present, I clarify the truth face-to-face and door-to-door. Sometimes it goes smoothly and other times not. As practitioners, we know that a cultivation path is not always easy. It requires us to improve our xinxing amidst conflicts and tests. While understanding such principles, we still have to follow Teacher's words and really walk well our path.
One time a fellow practitioner and I planned to clarify the truth the following day. It began to rain but I decided to go despite the rain since I could not go back on my word. This could likely be a test to see if I had perseverance. I did not know whether the other practitioner was still willing to go out, so I went by myself with an umbrella. Arriving at the first house, I clarified the truth to a man. Although he did not quit the CCP at that time, he was very touched, "Thank you for coming out here in such bad weather." I replied, "I am all right. As long as I can assist you in obtaining the opportunity to have a bright future, I am happy to do this."
It continued to rain. I came upon the second house as it began to pour. After clarifying the truth to the lady, she agreed to quit the CCP. When I finished, the rain stopped. When I left, she asked me who else I would visit. I replied, "I will visit whoever needs to be saved." She said, "Then you can visit door-to-door." When I heard this, I thought, "Isn't this a reminder from Teacher?" In fact, I had the attachment of fear at that time. Thinking it would be easier and safer to clarify the truth on a rainy day and choosing to only speak to the elderly or those that looked nice was a symptom of my attachment to fear. It also meant that I did not have enough faith in Teacher and Dafa. Sometimes when clarifying truth, many human attachments surfaced, such as zealotry, anxiousness, complaint, or showing-off. All these need to be eliminated.
When clarifying the truth, sometimes I do it alone and other times with fellow practitioners. Once when clarifying the truth to a family face-to-face, I saw a couple in their 20s getting ready to have lunch. As I talked to them, the wife looked at the husband and smiled. I thought it peculiar and did not know what this meant. After I finished talking, the husband said, "Auntie, do you know what my job is? I am a security officer in charge of Falun Gong pamphlets and booklets. Today you explained things to me and I have come to a clear understanding. I will not arrest you or report you, since I know you are all good people, but please be careful. My supervisor lives in another apartment downstairs. Please do not go talk to him, since he may not handle it the same way." I said, "Thank you. You are a good person." I looked around and saw a security uniform. Had I noticed this earlier, I probably would not have clarified the truth to them. Maybe this was to help me remove my attachment of fear. As I left, I asked him, "Would you quit the CCP?" He replied, "I will." I told him, "Please do not persecute Falun Gong practitioners, since they are all good people. Please remember, 'Good is rewarded with good, and evil will meet with retribution.'" He said, "I know."
So far we have clarified the truth to people in several villages around us. Some of them agreed to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. Some have not agreed yet. This is also related to our xinxing.
There are many stories but I cannot share every one of them here. I will do better in truth-clarification and assist Teacher in saving sentient beings so that Teacher will not have to worry about me. I know my level is limited, but I will try to do the three things well and steadily walk each step on the cultivation path.
With only a limited education, I am not good at writing articles. Please forgive me for any mistakes.
January 13, 2009