(Clearwisdom.net) I started to practice Falun Dafa
in 1995. Thinking back over all these years of cultivation, I have so much to
say. My deepest impression is how much Teacher cares for us and protects us. Our
lives are great because we have Teacher's Fa in our hearts.
1. "Falun Dafa is good!"
One day, several other practitioners and I were going to an experience sharing
meeting. Before I left, I was reciting Zhuan Falun and I kept
reciting the Fa on the way. At the bus stop I saw a man about 40 years old lying
on the ground with a group of people gathered around. His head and legs were
bleeding and his motorbike was lying next to him. Holding his legs, he was
moaning in pain. The man was drunk and had hit a piece of iron and crashed.
I talked to him and learned that his legs were broken. His family was not in
town and he had no phone. More and more people stopped to look, and the man kept
moaning. I asked him, "Do you believe me?" He looked at me and said
eagerly, "You are my mother." I was actually much younger than him.
What he said made the surrounding people laugh.
I said to him, "Shout 'Falun Dafa is good' if you believe me." He
said, "I will. How do I do it?" At that moment everyone else was quiet
and listening to us. I shouted loudly, "Falun Dafa is good!" He
shouted, too. I asked him to stand up and he said he could not. I got him up and
supported him."Stand up and walk," I said. He said, "I can't
walk. My legs are broken." I told him loudly, "I had genetic heart
disease and Falun Dafa cured it. If you truly believe it, walk and shout it. I
will shout, and you follow."
He started to walk with my support. I kept shouting, "Falun Dafa is
good!" and he echoed me. After we shouted three times, his legs were all
right, and he could walk again.
He was very surprised and so were the surrounding people. They could not stop
saying, "This is a miracle! A miracle!" I saw he was all right so I
went to catch up with the other practitioners.
When I found them, they said they were sending forth righteous thoughts when
they heard me shouting, "Falun Dafa is goodQ!" I regretted that I had
forgotten to tell the man about quitting the CCP (Chinese Communist Party) and
its associated organizations. Other practitioners said Teacher would help me if
I had that thought. Before they even finished that sentence, the man really came
up, pushing his bike. I thanked Teacher in my heart. The person recognized me
and said, "You saved me. How can I thank you? Let me kneel down in front of
you." He tried to kneel down, but we held him up and told him, "If you
would like to thank someone, you may thank our Master." He immediately
knelt down and kowtowed, "I'm kowtowing to Master." Then he asked how
he could repay Master. We told him, "When you go home, tell everyone you
know that Falun Dafa is good. Tell them to quit the CCP for their own safety.
You will be rewarded by doing so." He said, "I do not have to wait
until I get home. I'm going to shout 'Falun Dafa is good' on the way home."
He then walked away, pushing his bike and shouting, "Falun Dafa is
good!" Some people looked at him, puzzled. He then stopped and started to
tell them what just happened. When we were on our way to the meeting, after a
long time we could still hear the sounds of "Falun Dafa is good!"
The next day a practitioner told me, "Many people have been talking about
this incident. The results were so good. You really did a great job." I
said, "I did not expect it, either. It was not done by me. I was reciting
the Fa before that and the Fa was in my heart. Teacher arranges for predestined
people to be saved. It is the miracle of Dafa."
2. Fear is gone when compassion emerges
When my mother-in-law was illegally arrested and my home was
ransacked, I left home for a week due to fear. After I returned home, fear kept
bothering me. I told myself that the fear was not me and that fearing
persecution was in fact asking for persecution. I knew I should get rid of the
fear but I could not. The feeling of fear was still deep in my heart.
When I remembered that Teacher said to us, "The only thing you have a role
in is saving people," ("Teaching the Fa in the City of Chicago"),
I suddenly enlightened. If I kept thinking about what I would do if the police
showed up at my home and was in fact nursing my fear of the police, I was
actually harming those officers. I should not acknowledge those that would take
advantage of my weaknesses and let other sentient beings commit crimes against
Dafa and Dafa practitioners. I should not allow the evil to destroy sentient
beings. Getting rid of my bad thought is not only to avoid persecution, but is
also true compassion for others. Police are also sentient beings who are to be
saved. After I understood this, my fear disappeared.
3. Teacher's hint helped me to be compassionate toward family members
My family environment was where my shortcomings were really exposed. For many
years I had been complaining that my husband did not do enough housework, that
he spent a lot of money, and that he did not talk to me nicely. Last year when
we moved, I alone had to do almost everything, plus I had to cook and get my
child to school every day. I was very busy, but he never helped.
At the beginning I reminded myself not to get angry and to elevate my xinxing.
But soon I could no longer bear it. Bad thoughts kept coming into my mind, I
felt wronged and I said in my heart, "Teacher, I have been trying to be
good. But why is he still like this? I cannot bear it anymore..."
That same night I had a very clear dream. In ancient times a young man from a
rich family fell in love with a prostitute and wanted to marry her. She said she
was dirty and could not marry him. The young man said she was a kind person and
he would not regret marrying her. They got married and spent their whole lives
together. That prostitute was me, and the young man was my husband.
When I woke up, a sentence from the Fa entered into my mind: "With human
beings there's not just moral obligation involved, but also, between man and
wife, you are indebted to each other." ("Teaching the Fa at the
Meeting with Asia-Pacific Students")
I knew it was Teacher who saw I could not break through and used the dream to
show me the true nature of the relationship between me and my husband. Teacher
was telling me to raise my xinxing. I could not hold back my tears.
In fact, Teacher has told us everything, but I did not fully believe in Teacher.
I decided to remember Teacher's Fa and do whatever Teacher told us. From that
moment on in the family environment, I reminded myself all the time, "Whenever
you encounter a problem, you should first consider whether others can put up
with this matter or if it will hurt anyone." (Zhuan Falun)
I used this sentence from the Fa as the standard to treat everyone in my family.
I give presents to my in-laws, show every consideration to my husband, and take
care of our child. Family members said, "Dafa has changed you. Falun Dafa
is really good. We are lucky to be in this family."
4. Doing things with a pure heart
I have had many regrets on the road of my cultivation. For several years, I did
things but I did not cultivate my heart. I was busy every day and used more and
more time for doing things, and left less and less time for studying the Fa. I
forgot to look inward, and I accumulated more and more attachments, such as the attachment
of doing things, the competitive mentality, jealousy, the mentality of showing
off, and anger. In the end I realized that I was not validating the Fa but
validating myself. The evil took advantage of my lack of cultivation. My home
was ransacked, Dafa materials were taken, and my mother in law was illegally
arrested (she has since been released).
Facing the persecution, I felt sad. This would not have had happened if I had
followed Teacher from the beginning. I decided to truly treat myself as a
cultivator.
Now I'm not doing fewer things than before, but I feel different. In the past, I
complained about other practitioners giving me too many things to do. Now I take
every Dafa duty as an opportunity to uplift myself. I use my heart to do things.
With this attitude, even when I have so many things to do, I can do them well
and fast.
One day, when I was in a hurry to do a project which I felt was urgent and
difficult, a practitioner came and asked me to help her with another project. I
agreed immediately and spent two hours at her home to finish it. When I was
leaving, she thanked me and apologized for delaying what I needed to do. I told
her not to worry--I had just improved my xinxing and would be able to do
things faster and with a purer heart. After I got home, I finished my project
without a hitch.
I still have many shortcomings in cultivation. I will follow Teacher, fulfill my
vow, and return to my true home with Teacher.