(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1998. Although my journey has been bumpy at times, guided by Master, I've constantly improved myself while saving sentient beings and continuing to walk on the path to divinity.
Qing Caused Me Wrenching Pain
I have been detained in labor camps several times since the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started persecuting Falun Dafa in July 1999.
Before the Beijing Olympic Games in August 2008, the CCP conducted large-scale arrests of Falun Dafa practitioners. On May 12, the police raided my home and arrested me. My son argued with them to try to stop them, but I was taken away. In detention, I experienced the wrenching pain letting go of qing for my son.
My daughter came to see me in the labor camp. She cried and said, “When you were arrested, Brother ran into a neighbor's home and got a knife to fight the police, but the neighbors stopped him. He was so upset that he developed a mental disorder and has been hospitalized ever since.”
I started to cry. My daughter wanted to bail me out to look after him, but the labor camp said I first had to write a statement to renounce Falun Dafa. The pain in my heart was intense, and each day seemed like a year.
Then Master's Fa suddenly came to mind:
“Someone may say, 'I’ll earn some more money to settle my family down well so I won’t have to worry about anything. Afterwards, I’ll practice cultivation.' I would say that this is your wishful thinking. You are unable to interfere with the lives of others, and neither can you control others’ fates, including those of your wife, sons, daughters, parents, or brothers. Can you decide those things?” (Lecture Four in Zhuan Falun)
My mind was instantly clear and I thought, “Yes! How can ordinary people control me? Don't I have Master? I will leave it up to Master to arrange.” Once I let go of it, my son recovered in two weeks. He and my daughter came to see me. I said to Master in my mind, “Thank you, Master! Thank you, Master!”
Saving Predestined People Around Us
In the summer of 2012, other practitioners helped me find a job caring for the elderly. Both the husband and wife were over 90 years old and didn't have any children. I thought, “I must think of others; everything I do I must follow the requirement of the Fa. I should treat them as my own parents.”
The husband once asked his wife to trim his toenails. She said, “I can't see clearly at night. Can you wait until tomorrow?” When I asked to do it for him, he said, “It is too much trouble for you, and I feel embarrassed.” I said, “You can pretend that I am your daughter!” We joked and laughed. I picked up the nail clippers to trim his toenails. When the clippers touched his toe, it started to bleed.
Because his nail had grown into the flesh for so long, it had become purulent. I cleaned it with a tissue and dug the nails out of his flesh bit by bit. The man later checked his toes and said, “It is all better now. My wife always tried but couldn't do it.” The couple gratefully said, “Only a daughter would do as much!”
I said, “Grandma, I practice Falun Dafa, and my Master teaches me to be kind and to be a good person.” [Note: Elderly men and woman are often referred to as "Grandma" and "Grandpa" in China.] Grandma said, “No wonder--you practice Falun Dafa. Nowadays, not many people are as kind as you! We have changed care givers several times. Now you've come, and we don't need to change.” She said they had also practiced Falun Dafa in the past, but they stopped after the persecution started.
After that, I often clarified the truth to them, and she believed it. Once in the middle of the night, I got up to send forth righteous thoughts and saw her sitting in bed hitting her legs. I asked her the next day, “Grandma, what's wrong with your legs?”
She said that she suffered from phlebitis. I said, “You can repeat 'Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good' and you will be fine.” She said nothing. After a while, I didn't seen her hit her legs, and the plaster on her legs disappeared.
One day I asked her, “Grandma, why haven't I seen you hit your legs recently?” She said, “To be honest, since you suggested that I repeat 'Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,' I've done it every night. It really works--the pain in my legs disappeared.”
“I Am Completely Convinced This Time”
Times passes quickly, and I stayed with them for five months. Although the couple liked me, sometimes I faced issues that challenged me to upgrade my xinxing. Sometimes I couldn't pass it in my heart. When this occurred, I would recall Master's teaching:
“The only path that lies before you, the disciples of Dafa, is one of real cultivation. There is no other path.” (“What is a Dafa Disciple”)
One day my sister-in-law called me and said, “Your brother is in a hospital near you.” I hurried to the hospital and told him to recite, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!” He nodded his head.
To see my brother so ill touched my heart, and I went to see him every day. I thought that I couldn't offer any other help, but I could at least cook for him.
Once my human sentimentality arose, the old forces had a loophole to seize. One afternoon I went out to buy vegetables. I was thinking about what I should buy, lost my concentration, missed a step, and fell. When I got home I took off my socks saw that my ankle was blue, and it hurt. I rubbed my ankle several times; it got worse. The blue area swelled. Then I realized that, as a practitioner, only righteous thoughts work. How could I address this using an ordinary method!?
The grandma noticed that I walked with difficulty. She asked me what was wrong. I told her that I had fallen. She told me to go to bed.
After I sat down, I started sending forth righteous thoughts. It hurt when I sat in the single lotus position. I loosened my legs, but it was still painful. I made up my mind to sit in the double lotus position and did.
Just then, the couple came in. The old man said, “I have a medicated spray you can put on it.” I said, "I don't need it. I can do the exercises, and it will be fine tomorrow.” They left.
Then I heard the old man say in the next room, “Very stubborn! No matter what exercise you do, you need some kind of medication!” His wife said, “She will be fine without medicine.” The old man said, “It will take 100 days to recover from such an injury. How can she recover without it? I don't believe it. She will be worse tomorrow.”
In the middle of the night, I went to the bathroom. As soon as my foot touched the floor, I felt unbearable sharp pain. I almost crawled to the bathroom. At 3:50 a.m. I got up to do the exercises. I couldn't stand, so I leaned against the bed and finished the exercises.
After I sent forth righteous thoughts at 6 a.m., I laid down to rest. I remembered that the night before the man had told his wife to get up in the morning to cook. I thought, "How can I let a woman over 90 years old cook!"
So I got up. I used a stick for a support to walk to the bathroom. When I got up from the toilet, I suddenly felt something quickly leave my feet. I took a few steps, and everything was normal. There was no pain at all. I thought that perhaps my thinking about others had helped me reach the standard of the Fa and that compassionate Master had taken my karma and endured it for me. How great Master is!
Soon, the couple woke up. When they saw me cooking, they were very surprised. They said, “You've really recovered?” I said, “Yes, I recovered.” The man said, “Now, I am really convinced.” After that he changed his mind. I also told him about quitting the CCP, and he did.
Several days later, I left their home on personal business. After the grandpa heard I was leaving, he cried. He said, “We will never find a kind person like you who practices Falun Gong. If you doesn't come back, we'll have go to a nursing home.”
Before I left, the grandma said, “I have something I want to tell you. A month after you came here, you took us outside to get some fresh air. When you turned around, I saw colorful lights above your head. Very beautiful! I thought you would definitely reach consummation!”
Dafa disciples will reach consummation, and predestined sentient beings will be saved--this is what Master wants.
Thank you, Great Master!
