A New Practitioner: Getting Rid of My Attachment to Fear
(Minghui.org) I had to eliminate my attachment to fear while filing criminal complaints against Jiang Zemin, the former Chinese Communist Party leader, in 2015. I had just started practicing Falun Dafa the prior year. I felt scared after I sent in the complaints, especially when I was talking to people about Falun Dafa and the persecution.
I dealt with my fear head on that February 26, 2016, when eight practitioners in our area were arrested at the same time. One was from my Fa-study group. With her being arrested, I was afraid I would be followed and taken away too.
My son-in-law, who is not a practitioner, came to pick up his son one evening. As soon as he came in, he addressed me in a strict tone: “What did you do? The District Police Station called me a few times, saying that they must find you, and have you go to the Domestic Security Division to pick up a letter. They also said you must be there within three days. Otherwise, they will deliver it to either my workplace or your daughter's school.”
I asked him: “You don't know what I do? Don't I just practice Falun Gong, and that’s why they came to scare you?”
Though I didn't show fear, deep down, I was nervous. If I didn't go to pick up the letter, I knew my children would react negatively. But I didn't feel right about going there either.
Soon enough, the three-day deadline was up. That morning, Teacher's Fa came to mind:
“No matter what the situation, do not cooperate with the evil’s demands, orders, or what it instigates.” (“Dafa Disciples’ Righteous Thoughts are Powerful” from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I let go of a big burden. It was that simple: I would just listen to Teacher. Why would I cooperate with them? I made up my mind not to go.
Right away, I called my daughter and told her about my decision. After work, she came to see me: “Mom, I want to go to the Domestic Security Division to get the letter, so my husband and I can be in peace, and they won't bother us again. As it is, my husband argues with me every day about you practicing Falun Gong. I almost want to divorce him.”
Hearing that, the problem became complicated again. More of Teacher's Fa came to my mind:
“As true practitioners, we should look at issues from a very high level instead of from the perspective of everyday people.” (Zhuan Falun)
“No, don't divorce him,” I replied. “Go on with a good life and bring up your child. We should never go to get this letter. This has happened because I’m being tested about my attachment to fear. Today they ask you to go get a letter, but if you get it, they will make another requirement for you tomorrow. There will never be an end to it. Just ignore them!”
From the day I had that conversation with my daughter, neither my daughter nor my son-in-law have received any further harassing phone calls.
And after this test, my daughter said, “Mom, it's so strange, but until now, my husband has never behaved this well. He used to get drunk every other day, and no one could change him. He quit drinking. We are now getting along so well.”
I knew this was because of Teacher's help. Thank you, Master Li!
A few practitioners and I went out to clarify the facts in public one day. I was sitting all by myself on a bus, thinking about why the persecutors had become so fierce. I figured the reason was related to the overall xinxing of the practitioners in our area. Because of our loopholes, the old forces were able to interfere with us. We must study the Fa and cultivate ourselves well.
Teacher has told us that Dafa practitioners have the leading roles at this crucial point in history. Therefore, shouldn't practitioners have the say in this situation? Should we allow the old forces to manipulate practitioners? More importantly, we have Teacher and Dafa, so what is there to fear?
I then saw and felt my body become very big in other dimensions, and the evil became tiny. In the end, the dark minions became a pile of a dark substance next to my left foot that I could easily step on.
My attachment to fear then disappeared. Whenever I heard that there was a mass arrest, the news did not affect me. I went out every day in high spirits.
During the process of clarifying the facts, I always tell them that I am a Falun Dafa practitioner and let them know about the goodness of Dafa. Most of them have agreed with me and gladly withdrew from the Party.
I truly feel that Teacher has been by my side, watching over me, protecting and compassionately strengthening me. Now that I have overcome my attachment to fear and improved my xinxing, I feel elevated.
What Teacher has given me is tremendous. Just as Teacher said:
“I say that I’ve opened a huge door. But in fact, let me tell you: The door I’ve opened is so wide there is no more door, it’s completely open.” (Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Europe)