(Minghui.org) I am 76 years old, and in 1997, I was fortunate to begin practicing Falun Dafa. Under Master's compassionate care, my family has been producing Falun Dafa informational materials without a break for the past 13 years.
When One Person Practices Dafa, the Whole Family Benefits
Before practicing Dafa, I suffered from many ailments, including heart disease. Since I have practiced Dafa, I have been illness free.
The 11 people in my family witnessed how much I changed, and my husband and two of my daughters began to practice Dafa. My son-in-law and granddaughter believe that Dafa is good and support us.
By reciting "Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,” they have all received blessings in one way or another.
When my granddaughter was a junior in college, her grades were excellent. However, because she knew the truth about Dafa, did not take the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) lessons, and did not apply for Party membership, the school reduced her scholarship by 6,000 yuan.
My granddaughter said, “I don't care, Master gave me more.” As a result, even before she graduated, she was hired by a company she liked, and her salary and benefits were very good.
Eliminating the Attachment to Fear
The persecution of Falun Dafa began on July 20, 1999. Falun Dafa informational materials were stored at my house, as I was responsible for distributing them to fellow practitioners.
The coordinator asked me at the end of 2004 if I would produce the materials in my home, and I agreed. Practitioners brought a copy machine and all that was needed.
Not long after, we heard that the authorities had destroyed several material production sites and arrested practitioners. My heart was filled with fear and I wondered where to hide the equipment and the materials. I was afraid when someone knocked on the door, when I heard the sound of footsteps in the hallway, and when practitioners showed up at my home.
At that time, my two little granddaughters were attending elementary school, and their parents went away to work. After school, my granddaughters came directly to my home.
Because I was afraid of someone knocking on the door, I gave them the house key to let themselves in. I harbored this fear for a long time. Then I thought it was definitely not right to be so fearful and realized that I must have a problem. But where was the problem?
By seriously looking inward, I found it. Since the establishment of the production site, my focus had been on how to make materials. My attachment to vanity had surfaced, and I spent less and less time studying the Fa, and my mind was not calm when I did make time to study.
Master said:
“My roots are all deeply planted in the universe, and if someone could affect you, he could affect me, and to put it directly, he’d be able to affect the universe.” (Zhuan Falun)
After remembering this, I adjusted my mentality. Yes, there is Master, there is the Fa, what am I afraid of? Wasn't I overestimating the evil and underestimating myself?
I am a Dafa practitioner, and I am doing the most righteous thing in the world.I treated the sacred thing of making Dafa informational materials as an ordinary thing. My thoughts were ordinary people's thoughts and not righteous. That's why I was so fearful. I let go of my fear.
Master said: “ If you are not afraid, the factor that would make you afraid will cease to exist.” (“Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)” in Essentials for Further Advancement II)
Through this process of eliminating the attachment of fear, I realized why Master has repeatedly stressed studying the Fa more and studying it well. If Dafa disciples do not study the Fa well, they will have insufficient righteous thoughts and more human attachments.
Going forward, I put Fa study in the first place every day, studied the Fa more, sent forth more righteous thoughts, and cleaned up my own dimension more often, so that my xinxing gradually improved.
Looking Within and Eliminating Attachments
The materials we made were all downloaded from the Minghui website. We tried our best to cater to fellow practitioners' different requests. Some asked for large-size brochures, while others wanted small ones. It is not easy to please everyone.
When I was asked to make 100 large brochures, I immediately produced and delivered them. I was then told that they were no longer needed. I didn't say a word and took them back.
The same practitioner asked for 17 copies of Master's Fa teaching “Fa Teaching at the 2015 West Coast Fa Conference.” Once I had produced them, she no longer wanted them, as she had gotten them from another practitioner.
I got angry, chastised her, didn't maintain my xinxing, and left. I completely forgot I was a practitioner.
Master said:
“Whenever you encounter problems you should each look inward to search for the cause within, regardless of whether you’re to blame or not. Remember my words: Regardless of whether the problem is your fault or not, you should look inside yourself, and you will find a problem. If the matter has absolutely nothing to do with you or doesn’t involve any of the attachments you should break, then that thing would rarely happen to you.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Europe”)
After reading Master's Fa, I was embarrassed. It couldn't be just an accident that the same practitioner twice rejected the materials I'd made. There must be an attachment for me to eliminate, so I looked within.
I realized that I sometimes argued endlessly with other practitioners over small things and that I always looked at things with an ordinary person's mindset and only looked at the other party's deficiencies and not my own.
Thus, I hurt other practitioners and created a gap. At home, I always wanted to have the final say, and I didn’t listen to other opinions. Weren’t those the attachments of competitiveness, grievance, resentment, saving face, and self-validation? At the same time, wasn't I also attached to always coming out on top?
After understanding why I held certain attachments, I first went to the practitioner who refused to take the materials and apologized to her. I said that I did not cultivate well, that I had been unkind and had hurt her, and that I was sorry. She said, “That's ok. It was not easy for you, either.”
I also talked to another practitioner with whom I'd argued in the past. This and similar incidents helped me to cultivate based on the Fa and to continue to improve my xinxing.
My Problems Cause Equipment Problems
The printer is also a life. It is my Fa instrument and I should get along with it. In the process of making materials, if the printer has been working for a long time, sometimes problems develop.
For example, when the paper roller wears out, the paper doesn't feed properly. But sometimes the problem isn't with the Fa instrument—it is the cultivator who uses the Fa instrument that has a problem.
I was in a hurry to print a new issue of the Minghui Journal from the internet and ran into a problem. When the printer printed a few sheets of paper with extra lines, I decided to use the second printer. It had a paper jam, so I used the third printer. The third one didn't work either. This was the first time that three printers all had problems.
I realized that I must have a problem. I looked inward, sent forth righteous thoughts, and it turned out that I was angry with my husband over something from the past.
My mind was not righteous, so the Fa instrument did not work. I thanked the printers for helping me improve my xinxing; I also apologized to my husband, and after an hour, the printers started working again.
Master Is with Me
Master is with me, always watching over practitioners and protecting them.
When I was printing in November 2015, someone knocked on the door and shouted: “Auntie, open up!”
I thought it was Zhang from downstairs. I walked out of the inner room and closed the door. When I opened the outside door, I saw two policemen and two people from the street administration committee. I immediately asked Master not to let them in.
One of the police officers asked me if I still practiced Falun Dafa and if I'd sued Jiang Zemin, the former head of the communist regime. I said I did and then clarified the truth about Dafa to them
They tried to get me to sign a document and put my fingerprint on it, but I refused. They left without entering my home.
I was scared later but not while they were at the door. If it hadn't been for Master's protection, they would have found the printers and the consequences would have been unimaginable.
Category: Improving Oneself
