(Minghui.org) I am a Falun Dafa practitioner who has cultivated for many years. I know to look within myself first when coming across conflicts or tribulations in daily life. I then try my best to abandon any attachments. Yet when things did not go the way I'd hoped, I'd sometimes get annoyed if something raised my hackles. That is certainly not how a Falun Dafa practitioner should react to a situation. I felt deeply sorry when I failed to pass xinxing tests.

For quite some time my cultivation state fluctuated. I was able to maintain a good cultivation state on most occasions by holding myself back in an argument and forgiving those who fought against me in a conflict. However, I came to realize that there was one fundamental issue I was neglecting in my cultivation. I was clear that all Dafa cultivators must make cultivating their xinxing their top priority. And forbearance was the key to improving one's xinxing. To endure with anger, grievance, or tears was the forbearance of an everyday person. The forbearance of a Dafa practitioner must be without any hatred or grievance.

Sometimes I felt as if there must be loopholes in my cultivation. By looking inward, and by reading cultivation sharing articles by other practitioners, I was shocked to discover that I had a strong attachment to competition. That was why I could only endure with anger and grievance when encountering conflicts! That motivated me to rectify myself in the Fa. I watched my every word and deed so that I could assimilate myself to the Fa and let go of human attachments.

Soon I was able to remain calm and tolerant, just as a true Dafa cultivator, whenever my husband blamed me. As a result, he soon lost his short temper. He became amicable again, as if nothing had happened between us.

Once, when we were both serving our customers, he suddenly cursed and yelled at me. I did not get angry and curse back. Even though I remained calm, I couldn’t help looking back at our customers' reactions.

Later I asked myself why I had bothered to look at our customers when my husband shouted at me. I was sure that I still had an attachment to something that I was not yet aware of. I quickly understood that I should correct every single thought, remove all attachments, and become a true Falun Dafa practitioner.

As my xinxing improved day by day, the cultivation environment in my family also improved. Now, both my husband and child stand on the side of Dafa and give their utmost support for me to study and cultivate in the Fa, and do what a Dafa disciple should do.

Recently, I realized that when fellow practitioners or ordinary people point out my shortcomings and problems, they actually are helping me to rectify myself in the Fa! How compassionate they are to me!

A local practitioner once advised me that I should pay more attention to my personal hygiene and appearance. I corrected myself immediately, because I believe that poor personal grooming habits were encouraged by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) culture. As a particle of Dafa, we should unconditionally assimilate to Dafa and show the positive and beautiful side of Dafa to everyone.

Studying the Fa and cultivating my inner self helped me to correct myself in the Fa when running into tribulations. The environment around me subsequently improved. The intractable conflicts around me became fewer and fewer, and there is now almost no gap between me and my fellow practitioners. I truly believe that a cultivator’s environment is bound to change in the right direction as long as he keeps rectifying and upgrading himself.

The improvement in my cultivation state was subsequently reflected in my ability to share information about Falun Dafa with people. I was really shaken to see the expression of trust on the faces of those I talked with. They rushed to be the first to get Dafa leaflets from me. I burst into tears and said sincerely, “I am terribly sorry I was so slow in bringing you the truth about Falun Data!” Many agreed to withdraw from the CCP and were grateful for my help.

I now have a new understanding in regard to saving sentient beings. It is directly related to how well we assist Master in the Fa-rectification process and how well we assimilate ourselves to the Fa. As Dafa disciples, we as a whole also function as a Fa particle to save people, so there should be no gaps between us. We must look inward and cooperate well on Falun Dafa projects in order to assist Master in Fa-rectification, save sentient beings, and achieve consummation so we may return home with Master!