My Heart Opened Up When I Let Go of Hatred

(Minghui.org) A few years ago, I ran into serious conflicts with my wife’s family. Things didn’t improve, no matter how much I tried. It seemed that the entire family was against me. I had clarified the truth to them about Falun Dafa and the persecution. Although they learned the truth, they wanted to have the upper hand when talking to me, making me understand that their knowledge came from an everyday person’s perspective. For example, my wife once said, “The more righteous you act, the more will I deal with you like a devil.”

Because of my poor enlightenment quality, I focused on what’s right and wrong at the human level to show off my understanding. Even though I was calm on the surface, deep down my hatred was growing, and my wife’s hatred grew in proportion to mine. Our hatred for each other exploded whenever we saw each other. She even said things like, “I want to stab you every time I see you! I just want to stab you to death!”

During the 2018 Chinese New Year, I felt a strong burning sensation inside. It was as if my internal organs were on fire. I perspired profusely and had to take breaks after carrying only a light load of goods for a short distance. I was exhausted. The thought of “death” often crossed my mind. Whenever I closed my eyes, I thought I could die.

I lay down on the couch and pondered, “This is definitely not my path. I can’t be attached to human things, and should truly look inward. I can’t just appear fine on the surface; I should rectify myself based on the Fa.”

I began to memorize and copy “Severing,” “Discarding Attachments,” and “Who’s Right, Who’s Wrong” from Hong Yin II and III.

At first it felt like cement had been poured into my body and formed a concrete block. What I wanted to eliminate was like concrete. I calmed down and studied the Fa.

One week later while reciting the Fa, I heard a cracking sound coming from my chest and my head. It sounded like a glass cup hitting the floor. Then everything opened up. The ill feelings were swept away, a heavenly curtain opened, and colorful lights shone through! My smile was full of compassion, without a trace of hatred.

I saw my wife at noon. She said, “Why don’t I feel hateful now? Forget about it. I’m not like you anyway.” She seemed to have forgotten everything that happened before, and the quarrelsome atmosphere disappeared.

I was touched by Master Li’s (Dafa’s founder) benevolent protection and Dafa’s amazing power. It was my human notions and attachments that prevented my environment from changing for the better. It was my poor enlightenment quality and unwillingness to let go of human entanglement that put me in a life-and-death combative situation.

My attachments created great losses to my cultivation. I learned a profound lesson.