(Minghui.org) I have been working as an auditor for over 10 years. When I first started, my work was rough and perfunctory. I always prepared documents at the last minute, and used all kinds of excuses if I couldn’t meet the deadline. I was jealous and looked down on my colleagues. I thought I was more capable than they were. I wanted a higher position, but couldn’t get it.
I sharpened my professional skills through hard work in order to get promoted, and finally received praise from my leaders and colleagues several years later. However, I felt something was wrong, but couldn’t figure out what it was.
I knew the Fa has requirements for Falun Dafa practitioners. I measured myself with the Fa’s principles and tried to let go of attachments, such as jealousy, pursuit of fame, and showing off. However, it seemed that I had so many attachments that I would never be able to get rid of all of them.
One day, I was suddenly enlightened to what Master said,
“People might normally call someone “foolish” for responding like that, but some who were present knew that he engaged in spiritual practice, and asked him what on earth he would want, if even free housing didn’t appeal to him. He responded, “I’ll settle for whatever people don’t want.” (The Ninth Talk, Zhuan Falun)
I suddenly understood that the true meaning of my life was to help Master rectify the Fa. I shouldn’t have worked hard for fame or gain. I should validate the wonderfulness of Dafa and eliminate any misunderstandings people may have.
Since then, I have tried to live up to the Fa principles. I took the initiative to do my work well, and no longer thought about gains and losses. When I did so, it seemed my workload was not as heavy as before and my schedule became much more manageable.
Once, we were asked to work overtime on a project, but with only half of the normal pay. I thought, “Isn’t this to test my xinxing?” Although many colleagues complained about it, I remained calm, and did my job well.
On my way home, I had a deeper understanding of the Fa principle no pain, no gain, and we would receive the best if we could eliminate attachments in this human world.
From then on, I could take personal gain lightly. I understood that as a practitioner, everything I do is to validate the Fa and let people witness the greatness of Dafa. It’s like Master said, “Bathed in divine light, conduct and thought become right.” (The Third Talk, Zhuan Falun)
Letting Go of Sentimentality for My Son
Ever since I became pregnant, I knew that my child came to obtain the Fa. He listened to Master’s lectures. and did the exercises with my parents when he was young. When he was in kindergarten, he told his classmates and teachers that Falun Dafa is good, even though his teacher told him not to.
When my son was in elementary school, he didn’t do well academically. I tried to get him to improve his grades through private tutors, but with little success. My mother added fuel to the fire and always said, “He won’t go to a good university if he doesn’t do well at school. And he won’t find a good job in the future.”
I thought that my son should study hard and get good grades, so I scolded him. I knew that I didn’t behave as a cultivator when I yelled at him, but I couldn’t find a better way to solve the problem. In the end, my son became resentful and did even worse at school. He was even more rebellious when he was in junior high school. I didn’t know what to do.
Finally, my son ranked at the bottom with his grade in one exam. When I saw his mark, I was so angry. I kept telling myself to calm down, but his attitude really irritated me. I forced myself to calm down, telling myself that I was a practitioner, that nothing is coincidental, and that it was because I had attachments that needed to be removed.
I finally calmed down and looked inward. I realized that for many years, I was envious when my friends showed off how good their children were and what prestigious schools they had gotten into. That’s why I always wanted my son to get into the top schools.
In addition, my selfishness and attachment to showing off all surfaced. I knew I was wrong when I didn’t look within when facing problems.
Thinking of this, I said to him, “I won’t scold you today. Let’s look at this matter together from the perspective of the Fa. Since you started junior high school, have you studied the Fa or done the exercises? As a practitioner, you should study hard because Master asks us to be good people in every way. I apologize because I should not have pushed you so hard out of my pursuit of fame.”
He told me that he felt depressed when he saw competitiveness and jealousy was everywhere in the school. He also admitted that he did not study the Fa or do the exercises, and didn’t live up to the Fa’s principles. I told him that we would study the Fa together daily and communicate openly so we could correct ourselves in the Fa.
I began to look within and found that it was sentimentality that drove me to worry about my son’s grades. As his mother, my real responsibility is to help him walk on a path of cultivation. Master told us clearly that we each have our path in life. I didn’t treat my son as a practitioner and wanted to change his fate. I was afraid that he would go through hardship if he could not find a good job in the future. In fact, all practitioners have to go through hardships, including my son. He has to live his life by himself. He has to repay his karma, and nobody can change his fate.
Clarifying the Truth to My Husband
The overwhelming persecution by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) was too much for my husband. I wanted to clarify the truth to him and help him quit the CCP, but he refused to talk about Falun Dafa at home.
When the pandemic broke out in Wuhan, he immediately told me about it. I bypassed the Great Firewall of China and accessed overseas information on the Internet, and read some overseas reports to him.
I questioned that if the virus was airborne, why did some people closer to the patient not catch it while others further away did catch it. “That’s because those people have a strong immune systems,” he answered.
“Then it means that modern scientific understandings of the virus are incomplete,” I replied. He agreed, so I continued, “Many invisible particles of matter exist in the air even though we can’t see them with our naked eyes.”
I went on to say that since this virus was so powerful, it must have come in a targeted way, as good is rewarded and evil will meet with retribution. He again agreed, “You know I’m a practitioner. Am I like what’s described in the state-run propaganda?”
He said, “Of course not. Who believes the CCP’s news!?”
I asked him if he would like to quit the CCP and stay away from it. “Good! I will quit,” he replied.
I found it easier to talk to him about Falun Dafa after that. I always chatted with him about work and life from the perspective of the Fa’s principles, and his attitude gradually changed. Once, I heard him say to his colleague that he didn’t want to fight for profit and fame, as it was his if it was meant to be.
I realized that we should keep telling people around us about Dafa, even after they quit the CCP and its youth organizations. The old forces in other dimensions still exist, so we should continue to strengthen their good sides and influence them in a positive way. People all have Buddha nature, and this can also lay a good foundation for them to obtain the Fa in the future.
One of my relatives believed the CCP’s lies and propaganda about Dafa since the beginning of the persecution. He was more afraid when he saw practitioners being persecuted again and again, fearing for himself. After so many years, he refused to listen to the truth about Dafa. I thought, from the bottom of my heart, that he was hopeless.
When I read Master’s teachings about demonic interference from one’s own mind, it occurred to me that the old forces had exploited the loopholes of Dafa disciples’ notions. How could he accept the truth if I didn’t think he would listen to me? Didn’t I strengthen the old forces in other dimensions? Maybe that’s why he refused to listen to me.
After I recognized my notions, I sent forth righteous thoughts to completely remove them from my dimension. I decided to untie the knot in his heart and clarify the truth to him again. I went to his home and greeted him. He was surprised and puzzled by my visit. I said, “As the younger generation, I should have visited you more.” He didn’t kick me out this time and chatted with me happily for a few hours.
On my way home, I told myself that I should not judge anyone in the future. For many years, I have thought other people had problems if they refused to listen to me. But most of the time, they changed their attitude as soon as I rectified myself. I should always break my human notions so I can save more people.
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