Walking My Cultivation Path Over Nineteen Years

(Minghui.org) I was released from the forced labor camp 19 years ago, where I was detained for practicing Falun Dafa. I set up a materials production site at my home. I clarified the truth to the police in person, and exposed the vicious acts by the local government in its persecution of practitioners. Thanks to Master’s protection, I have been safe, although I did face risks. However, I have witnessed the power of Dafa. 

Perseverance Despite Feeling Lonely

When I was released from the forced labor camp in June 2003, my health was not good due to the persecution I endured. I studied the Fa daily and read experience-sharing articles published on the Minghui website that local practitioners delivered to me. When I read this by Master: “I know all of the suffering of my disciples.” In “Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)” (The Essentials of Diligent Progress II), tears covered my face. A clear, warm, and calm current surrounded me. I was certain that I would definitely follow Master to return to my original home!

Studying the Fa, Letting Go of Fear, and Setting Up a Materials Production Site

After I returned home, I lived at home with my daughter. My husband was still staying away from home to avoid being persecuted. Fear haunted me all the time. I trembled when I heard the siren of a police car. I didn’t dare to practice the exercises in my own yard. I felt that the interference from other dimensions suppressed me, so I could hardly breathe sometimes. 

The managers at my workplace often came to “see” me. I studied the Fa a lot while my child was at school. I had made a big wish the moment I walked out the gate of the forced labor camp: I wanted to study the Fa for three months before I went back to work. Master saw my determination to cultivate Falun Dafa and created a good cultivation environment for me. Most of my fear disappeared after I studied the Fa for three months. I was able to clarify the truth about Falun Dafa to people in person when I went back to my workplace, although my fear was not completely gone. 

Our local technical support practitioner encouraged me to set up a materials production site at my home. He brought a photocopier to my home. Due to my fear, I moved the photocopier in and out of my home several times. The practitioners in my Fa study group were very understanding and helped send forth righteous thoughts for me. Thanks to Master’s strengthening, I made up my mind to keep running the production site.

The technical support practitioner delivered a laptop and printer to my home. I then bought a DVD burner and paper cutter. I produced single-page fliers, and gradually produced pamphlets, sticky posters, DVDs, and Falun Dafa books. I edited the truth-clarification materials, uploaded articles to the Minghui website, and wrote articles to expose the local evildoers. I have been doing this for 17 years. I complied strictly with the security rules for producing materials. After producing them, I delivered the materials to a local practitioner. I ran the production site all year round, rain or shine. I bought the consumables myself, contacted the shops using a special phone, and purchased from various shops. My production site has operated well and safely for the past 17 years. 

Dafa Helped Solve Technical Problems

As our practitioners clarified the truth to more people, they needed more materials. I had to upgrade my printers and computers many times. When there were problems with my machines, I had to ask the tech support practitioner for help. This practitioner was so busy that he didn’t have much time to do the exercises or study the Fa. As a result, he was severely persecuted. 

I was awakened by the fact that he was persecuted. I knew I shouldn’t continue to rely on him. So I started to do everything by myself and overcame all sorts of difficulties. During the process, I let go of my impatience, my reliance on the tech support, my being afraid of troubles, my hatred, and my wanting to do things instead of cultivating. For days and nights, I read the instructions and articles, and I installed and uninstalled the equipment, adjusted them, installed the system, and repaired the machines. I didn’t ask for help from tech support unless it was absolutely necessary. 

The practitioners on the technical support platform helped me. During the day, after I finished my work, I listened to Master’s audio lectures. I also read Master’s various lectures to ensure that I was maintaining a diligent cultivation state. Thanks to Master’s strengthening, I was able to deal with everything compassionately despite all the interference. 

A practitioner once asked me if I ever thought about closing down the production site after so many years. I told her that I never had. My work would not stop until the Fa-rectification period ends. However, sometimes I felt unbalanced in my heart, but I adjusted my mentality as soon as I realized it. Sometimes I felt lonely as if I was in a vast empty universe when I was sitting in front of the computer on a cold, snowy winter night or upon encountering some problems I didn’t know how to solve. But, when I sent forth righteous thoughts with my palm erected, I felt that thousands of soldiers on horses marched onto the battleground, and the dark minions and rotten ghosts had nowhere to hide. Master opened my wisdom and enabled me to solve the problems – one after another. Udumbara flowers blossomed on my gate tiles twice. I knew that was encouragement from Master. 

As the Fa-rectification progressed, the number of home materials production sites increased as well. So I haven’t been as busy. Thus, I went out to clarify the truth to people in person on the street, in the shopping malls, and at the market. I also distributed truth-clarification materials and DVDs door-to-door in the countryside. During the Chinese New Year, we gave out Dafa calendars at the market. People were happy to receive the beautiful calendars. When we saw people’s joy after they learned the truth, we knew the evil must be terrified. 

Creating a Cultivation Environment at My Workplace

The reason I was persecuted in 2002 was because the leaders at my company colluded with the officers of the Domestic Security Division, and asked them to re-educate me. On the surface, the leaders at my company did this because they didn’t want to lose their jobs. However, the actual reason was that I hadn’t thoroughly clarified the truth to them. When I returned to work after I had studied the Fa for three months, I decided to clarify the truth to the director first. I did not want him to commit any further crime against Dafa, and I did not want the evil to have the chance to destroy sentient beings. All sentient beings were once Master’s family members. 

When I was taken to the forced labor camp in 2002, the director of the Domestic Security Division said that the director of my company wanted me to be “re-educated.” I knew it was because he didn’t know the truth. So I decided to clarify the truth to him first. I felt sorry for him. I worried that he would receive retribution for what he did. I told him about what I had witnessed in the forced labor camp. Practitioners were force-fed, violently beaten, monitored every minute, exposed to the scorching sun and the freezing cold all day, and more so how the practitioners were tortured. I also told him about how Falun Dafa has spread throughout the whole world, and about retribution would be faced by evildoers. He had tears in his eyes and seemed to regret his actions. He said he didn’t know it was like that. He was apparently moved. Later on his son lost 2 million yuan when gambling. His savings of a lifetime was gone. The principle of retribution is real. 

I also clarified the truth to the deputy directors at my workplace. One deputy director was previously a colleague. He had gone to the forced labor camp to learn how I was re-educated, and whether I was “transformed”. I previously clarified the truth to him, but I might not have helped him to thoroughly understand the situation. To carry out the orders given by the local 610 Office, he went to my hometown with others to threaten my parents. 

This was a good opportunity for me to clarify the truth to him. I was a bit nervous and asked Master to strengthen me. I went to his office and talked to him about how Falun Dafa had spread throughout the world, that the persecution was illegal, and that good would be rewarded, and evil would be punished. He listened to me carefully. I told him not to be a scapegoat. When Falun Dafa has cleared its name, it will be him that would be on trial, and the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) will not assume responsibility for it. I talked to him calmly and got good results. 

When I saw his wife. I clarified the truth to her and asked her to tell her husband to withdraw from the CCP. She was happy about it, and said that she would tell him. Later on, I learned from a local practitioner that he agreed to withdraw from the CCP. 

Then, another deputy director was assigned to the director’s office. He was arrogant. One day he called me into his office and said that he had been thinking of talking to me. He asked if I still practiced Falun Dafa. I said of course because it is a practice that assures that people become physically and mentally healthy. as well as assures that people develop high moral standards. I told him that Falun Dafa has spread to over 100 countries and that the persecution of Falun Dafa is illegal. He said that a Falun Dafa practitioner from Taiwan clarified the truth to him over the phone. I asked him to remember that, “Falun Dafa is good” and to treat practitioners kindly. He should choose a good future for himself. I am grateful to the overseas practitioners for clarifying the truth to Chinese people on a large scale. Though he didn’t withdraw from the CCP, he learned the truth and has never caused any trouble for me since then. 

When the third director came to my company, he called me into his office and scolded me loudly. He asked me if I still practiced and threatened that he would fire me if I caused any trouble. I clarified the truth to him calmly without any fear and with compassion in my heart. I couldn’t let him commit any crimes against Dafa or practitioners. 

One day at a dinner party, I and other colleagues went to toast him. He said that he refused to allow the officers of the 610 Office to come to harass us because it was not good for the reputation of our employees or the company. Because of this righteous thought, he was blessed. He was safe during the investigation of the disciplinary committee. 

Quite a number of leaders came and left during the past over 10 years. I clarified the truth to them whenever I had the chance. Though some of them didn’t withdraw from the CCP and its youth organizations, they learned the truth. I laid a foundation for them to quit the CCP in the future. 

I clarified the truth to my colleagues as well. Many of them withdrew from the CCP organizations. In the process I let go of some of my attachments, such as fear, being afraid of troubles, and seeking comfort. I complied with the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance at work and worked hard. My leaders were satisfied with my work. When the officials from the county Domestic Security Division came to my company for a review of me, my department manager and the leaders of the company gave good comments about my work. 

I used to feel a lot of fear. Now, I have strong righteous thoughts and am able to face the evil squarely. I clarify the truth to people with compassion. I know it is due to Master’s protection and strengthening. I also experienced the importance of studying the Fa well, and cultivating myself well. 

My work environment also changed. My pay, which was lowered when I was persecuted, was increased to the regular amount. I am able to clarify the truth openly there. One day, however, a colleague saw me give a client the software to break through the Internet block, and he smiled and said, “You are brainwashing other people again.” I said to him compassionately, “You shouldn’t be too selfish. (He has quit the CCP). You are safe now. Other people should also be saved and become safe!” I took every interference as an opportunity to clarify the truth and to save more sentient beings. 

My Daughter Helped Me Cultivate

My daughter started to practice Falun Dafa with us when she was little. I was very strict with her. She was afraid of me and didn’t talk back, even if she was not happy with my demand. I was a strong woman. My husband was easygoing. I had the final say in my family. I would shout if things didn’t go my way and complain until I was pleased. I didn’t care how other people felt. 

For a long time I thought I would handle everything on my own. There was a positive side to this. When facing the evil in the forced labor camp and the police, I could tell them the truth without fear. And I could see the true problems in my cultivation. But, meanwhile, I was stubborn and attached to my own ideas. When I was treated unfairly, I liked to argue about who was right and who was wrong. I didn’t realize this shortcoming even though I had cultivated for 20 years. As we are at the final stage of Fa-rectification, Master saw that I was still not aware of my attachment, and arranged for my daughter to demonstrate it to me. 

My daughter was planning to get married. However, she was not satisfied with what her in-laws were doing. She complained to me about them for at least an hour almost every day. She even threatened that she would not get married. At first, I tried to persuade her. Later on, I was harsh to her over the phone. Finally, I was so angry that I hung up on her or didn’t answer the phone. 

But she continued to call me, and she complained about how I wasn’t considerate of her and made trouble for her for all these years. When she came home on weekends, she complained even more. She couldn’t eat well or sleep well. She even said that life was meaningless and she would rather die. Her words touched me. 

I started to look at my shortcomings. I was too confident and attached to other people’s attachments. I was attached to the Fa-rectification’s end time. I had hatred and jealousy. I was not considerate of others and was attached to myself. During all these years, I could not tolerate my mother-in-law’s behavior. When I had conflicts with my husband or other practitioners, all those things came up in my mind. I was not aware of my attachments though I had practiced Falun Dafa for 20 years. 

It is only now that I realize how strong my attachment to myself was. I couldn’t hold back my tears when I was sending forth righteous thoughts at noon. I felt sorry for myself and my indulgence in those illusions. My daughter had to demonstrate those to me. I said to Master in my heart that I was wrong and I would give up my attachments. Those attachments were as hard as a diamond mountain in another dimension. I knew I must dissolve them. 

I changed myself. My daughter changed as well. She was no longer attached to those trivial things. She said that she would get along with her boyfriend and that she was too mean. She praised him for his understanding and that he apologized to her for the mistakes he made. 

It is not far away that we will return to our original homes. I will cultivate diligently, cultivate myself well, and follow Master to return home.